I was thinking about this question the
other day while making an appointment to see my eye doctor. I was
diagnosed with Macular Degeneration 2 years ago and being a visual
artist along with just getting started with a business that I loved right before I was diagnosed I
thought someone was playing a cruel joke on me when I heard the news that I was loosing my eyesight. I was devastated. I thought I just
overcame so much in my life it was unfair to also have to add
blindness to the long list of things that I went through.
I must admit the journey to get to this
point in my life has been an amazing journey. You can read about
my journey in my short bio [Here]. At first I was understandably full
of resentment, sadness and and grief. I think I went through all 5
stages of grief twice in one years. Last summer with the help
of some amazing people I realized that I had everything I needed in
order to succeed.
I was sitting in the car with my
husband one night and he told me the most amazing thing. I was crying like a
baby because I was overly stressed about loosing my eyesight. My
husband parked the car, turn to me and sharply said I am really
surprised at you right now. I said what do you mean? He sat back and
said listen to me very clearly because you will probably never here
me say this ever again. We have been married for 18 years now, I have known you for almost 20 years and I
have seen you do some amazing unbelievable things.
He said You have gotten almost
everything that you have asked for. That day when we got you that
expensive computer to this day I still don't know how we got the
money but we got you that computer. You wanted to live in an
expensive luxury apartment that at first we couldn't afford but a few
days after touring the apartment they call us saying that they have a
one bedroom in our budget. I laughed and said yea that was pretty
cool.... After going through the list of things I done he said you have the ability to manifest what ever you want so
why are you acting like you are so powerless?
I said this is different. He said no
it's not what do you want? I said I don't want to go blind. He then
said I understand that but what do you want? I said I want to see. He
gently touched my hand and said then you already know that there is
more then one way of seeing... My husband was right. Up to this point
I have learned soo much about LOA, Mindfulness, faith, and water
memory. Over all I have learned many lessons from all my successes
and failures. I have learned lessons from all my struggles.
I have seen what works and what don't
work. I have gone through so much in my life from 8 years of
childhood sexual abuse to years of many different illness to now
having Macular Degeneration. Losing your eyesight is like loosing a close friend that you had loved and cherished all your life. Ultimately I over came all the hard struggles in my life. My husband was right having
Macular Degeneration and loosing my eyesight was no different then
anything else I overcame. All that I have gone through have prepared me
for this moment right now. If I can overcome childhood abuse I can overcome this. Over the years I have learned to be
flexible and never stay ridged with any thing. I have learned to flow
like water and thrive.
When I got my AHAA moment I changed my
focus from only being a visual artist to being a Spiritual Creativity
Life Coach. I have learned that everything that I have been through
have lead me to this moment right here. I have overcome so much in my
life and I want to help others overcome as well. Everything that we go
through in our life is not for nothing. Our experiences good or bad
are meant to be teachers. The question is are we willing to listen
and learn from our experiences or will we let our experiences keep us
stuck?
What if everything you have gone
through have prepared you for this moment right now?
