I just received great news from my eye
doctor. After doing more test on my eyes he said that I am doing very
well and I wont need surgery or treatment for my Macular
Degeneration. The doctor was surprised because after the results of
my first round of tests 2 years ago he was sure that I was going
blind but when I went in to see him for more tests and treatment
there was only a slight decline in my vision from the last tests.
He said “Wow what ever you are doing
keep doing it because it's working”. When he said that I wanted to
fall over laughing because I have been doing a lot to see if I could
slow or halt the decline in my vision without mentioning what I have
been doing to anyone... I wanted to blurt out and tell the doctor
what I have been doing but I didn't want to sound like a crazy woman
so I just bit my lip and smiled ^_^
The doctor said at this rate I don't
have to worry about loosing my eye sight or having any complications
from MD. I was extremely grateful to hear that. In truth I was
extremely grateful way before I went into the doctors office for more
testing. When the doctor told me that I was going to loose my eye
sight 2 years ago of course I was devastated and I went through a
great deal of depression but a year after I was diagnosed I realized
I had everything I needed to succeed.
I wanted to see. I knew about the Law
of Attraction and all of the self help things that I could do but I
ask myself what was the ONE thing that I can do that can truly change
everything? The answer that came to me was except going blind. Make
being blind my greatest asset. Be grateful, don't fight it embrace
it. When that thought came into my mind I thought I was going crazy.
No one in MY world would do such a thing. Also this is the total
opposite of what I wanted and If I told anyone that I was embracing
going blind they would think I am crazy and that I am simply giving
in to defeat.
I took notice of a lot of things in my
life in just the last 2 years. I noticed the more I resisted going
blind the worse I felt. The more I tried to “fix” my eye sight
the worse my eye sight got from stress so I thought well what if I
stopped and just embraced it. Not in a pity party sort of way but in
a more positive way. What would I have to loose. So I changed the way
I thought about my eye sight. I embraced the thought of going blind
and owned it. I pretty much put a ring on it.
Every day I said to myself I have
Macular Degeneration and I may go blind. It's ok I love and except
myself any way. I am grateful for what I have... I am afraid to go
for a long walk out side by myself because I am having a hard time
seeing. It's ok I love and except myself any way. I am just grateful
that at lease I can step outside and feel the sun on my skin. Maybe
tomorrow I can go farther... My eyes hurt. It's ok I love and except
myself any way. I just need to rest my eyes for a while and when I
open them I will feel much better. I am grateful that I can get some
rest even just for a moment. I am also grateful I can still see
something when I open my eyes.
Every day for the last 9 months I
embraced everything and my whole world started to changed. I was also
careful to avoid stress, negative talk and negative people. I knew
these things are bad for my health. With negative people I would
listen to them but I would hold my positive center which became my
anchor. I always kept what I was trying to accomplish at the far
front of my mind so I tried hard not to indulge in negativity in any
way even at the cost of coming across looking like I didn't care.
It's not that I didn't care it was just that my focus was on slowing
down or halting the decline of my eye sight so if I have to avoid
negative people like the plague to keep my eye sight then that is
what I must do.
Many people says it's bad to go blind.
Someone once told me “if I was told I was going blind I would kill
myself” :-/ (Yea someone really sad that to me the first year I
was deep in depression smh). If you was to hear some people talk it's
bad to feel any discomfort and any pain. In the last year I learned
to look at my discomfort, pain and Macular Degeneration like a crying
baby. If you was holding a crying baby in your arms would you fight
it, harshly tell it stop crying and I wish you wasn't here or would
you hold the baby, try to sooth it and tell the baby it's ok woo woo
woo everything is going to be alright?
What we resist persist. Why do we treat
our pains and afflictions like an evil that must be fought and
conquered? What if we took the opposite approach and become grateful
for everything we are going through even the most painful events? I
remember hearing a true story about a Priest who was wrongly accused
of sorcery. He was locked up in prison and the guards only gave him
nasty, smelly stale water with stale bread. After 40 days the guards
saw that the priest was healthier and stronger then when he first
arrived. Convinced that the priest was practicing sorcery the guards
took the priest to question him and after brutal torture the priest
confessed that he had prayed over the water thanking God for the
trials that he was going through. The stinky water turned clear and
he was able to drink the water.
The Priest thanked God for the trials
that he was going through and the stinky water became clear and
drinkable. I prayed and I was grateful for the trials that I was
going through and the decline in my eye sight was tremendously slowed
almost halted. If you are in a situation where things seem to be just
bad and miserable try gratitude. Yea it may sound like a crazy thing
to do in the mist of your misery and God knows this is not always an
easy thing to do. Could you embrace going blind? I did it and I got a
very positive out come and I am very happy. My story is not rare. I
have come across many people who have done the same thing with
similar results. If I could halt becoming blind by simply embracing
my situation and showing gratitude what can you do?
People keep telling me Barbara just
having a positive attitude don't always change thing. I say Gratitude
changes EVERYTHING. If you don't believe me try it.
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